Lair of Flying Green Song Rabbits

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

I could really use a wish right now.

I had a sudden desire to visit my old Xanga blog, and boy is it the epitome of teenage angst. So much had happened in just a span of a few years during those times, hard times. I also haven't been writing in my diary since I haven't felt the urge to record anything significant down. I've gotten over the need to whine and bitch about life so I have no idea what to do with all these extra notebooks.

Now that holidays are back, perhaps I should start writing? As in, with pen and paper (and all these notebooks I have).

I haven't been feeling myself lately. Earlier this year I was ready to get up before 1pm and do something with my day. Now and ever since midsem break, I don't feel like waking up at all. I've been feeling quite down and somewhat lost at what to do with my time. This is just a consequence of my self-conscious issues and hopefully I'll be getting over it soon.

I'm sitting here staring at my abnormally large muffin top, wondering if I would ever accomplish losing all this excess body mass.

My New Years resolution from 2 years ago was to lose weight and attain my ideal of 55kg with leaner thighs and tummy. Instead, I went from 62kg to 69kg as of just a couple of weeks ago.

Complete FML!

62kg doesn't seem that bad in comparison...

I suppose it is all just numbers and to be honest, it is. It doesn't really matter if you are a few kilos over as long as you still look healthy and glowing. After all, a girl with a bit of meat and likes to eat is very attractive.

Before I left for America I was roughly 63kg down from 65kg. It's hard to believe that I gained approximately 5kg in the space of a month, eating whatever I liked (majority of it made up of cheese and carbs). Not only that, when I came back I was visibly bigger; my cheeks were rounded again, my double chin more pronounced and my tummy bigger than I have ever seen it in my entire life.

And now I wonder to myself, do I deserve this with my uncontrollable gluttony and bad sleeping habits? It is definitely all my fault that I let this happen. I have not respected my body and give it the exercise, fibre and unsaturated fats that I need.

So I'm sitting here scratching my itchy arms, overworked from the vigorous jumping around I did earlier that strained my blood vessels.

I think about the cellulite beginning to form on my thighs and bottom, the same thighs and bottom that no longer fit my favourite Sass & Bide skinnies. Heck, I can't even pull up my new Levi's I just brought back from America!

I see the photos from the Gold Coast trip and cringe; did I always have those fat rolls on my back?

And lastly, I ask myself if I will continue growing wider and heavier as the years go by (I remember just several years ago when I was 54kg) and end up being 75kg in just a couple more years? What about after my first pregnancy, will I be one of those overweight mothers who can't drop the weight no matter how hard they try?

I shudder.

I realise the path I am on yet don't want to stop indulging in the newest foods. I have yet to try many things that I must eat before I die such as foie gras, squid ink pasta and rat. YES RAT!

As I stare at the bump that looks as though I am 3 months pregnant, I think "God, am I fat!".

I knew that I would dread coming back from our trip to the Gold Coast.

I knew that once back, I won't have to work anymore.

I knew that once back, I will be stuck at home with nothing to do although there is a lot I have to do (driving lessons, researching internships for next semester, buying new printer wtf).

I knew that I would go back to being bored and feel like I am wasting my break doing nothing, although I WANT to do nothing and just relax and watch Asian drama all day because I won't be able to do this ever again until I'm old and droopy and did I mention old?

Or maybe I'm just seriously PMSing.

I am on my period WTFTMI.

And so is Midori WTFTMIWTF.

If anyone is wondering, I'm watching Autumn's Concerto which you can download here.

It's 2am in the morning and I don't want to sleep. I feel bad for neglecting the blog so I shall post something.

I'm stressed.

Tomorrow is the last day of stuvac before it's exam, day study break, exam, day study break, exam, 4 days break, exam.

Finish: 18th Wednesday.

I have not started reading my textbook and making notes has been such a blur, I can't remember anything!

I also just realised there's past exam papers I can do for Biochemistry but I don't even have time to do them.

I am in serious need of some sleep but I've just been popping all forms of paracetamol, codeine and what not. They don't help the headache, infact they make it worse because I realise I don't remember their mechanism of action although I should for Pharmacology (my first exam). I tried identifying the brain region where my head is hurting then realised I should also know my brain regions and effects of addictive drugs on each region; but I can't recall...

Everything around me seems to have some connection to what I'm studying so it all just exacerbates the headache and the restlessness.

My only relief every night is a call from my current main squeeze but a night ago (or maybe 2? My days and nights are a blur), we chatted until he was $40 over his cap and I told him he shouldn't call anymore. Oops.

My mum said yesterday night that I appear older now than when I was doing HSC and stressing although I told her I was probably also studying this hard then. Thanks mum, just what I needed when I'm stressing and looking like shit from all the stress.

She almost made me tear up.

Lots of things seem to make me tear up these days.

Maybe it's because I'm getting old (lol early menopause much?).

I don't even feel coherent anymore.

Back to doing some Nutrition notes, hope you're all well.

My sister is so cute. Yes that is the hat from Animania from like half a decade ago. And those are the 3D glasses from the cinemas with the lens poked out lol.

Sucked.


Let's start with last night. I tried to sleep early for once, but I ended up rolling around in bed until 3 or so 'cause my wisdom tooth was being indecesive and wondering if it should come out or not but shoving along my molar whilst it was at it and causing throbbing pain.
FYI, this happens once in a while and I haven't seen or heard from my wisdom teeth since.

Woke up with cramps and a monthly surprise~

Crawled out, went bathroom, crawled back in and tried to sleep.

Rolled out at noon after a lot of sleeplessness.

Did nothing much the entire day except just generally feeling bad and fixing up a few things on Xion~

Then I had to make dinner.

Somehow manage to burn the boiled potatos and carrots on low heat.

Also managed to burn the tofu.

And a few other problems including spilling stuff everywhere, yellow, rotting vegetables, scouring carbon off the bottom of pots too heavy for me, forgetting to turn on the rice cooker, and forgetting to add seasoning to the tofu.

Feeling bad and grumpy and still in pain in general after making dinner, not to mention soaking wet sleeves mainly due to our stupid tap laterally releasing water constantly, I decided to go shower first to make myself feel better.

Did so.

Shower was good. Nice, hot, long, just the way I like it.

Came out, started getting dressed. Then I hear my phone.

Half-dressed (or half-undressed, however you see these things), I answer it.

And I find out I've missed my own birthday dinner~

Yay.

FML

I would rather die than be working class or poor.

I need to be the next Gabrielle Solis.

I want to be able to go to the dentist and not sweat over maxing out my private healthcare, becuase I have plenty of cash where that came from.

Sadly, that is not the case.

Fuck my poverty.

Had a shit day at work today but more on that later.

Sunday
Sass and Bide Sale! Woke up at an hour too ungodly for non exam season to go to Sass and Bide sale with Serena! There wasn't as many people as expected at the sale lining up outside as I thought XD But once inside and after an hour or so everything was a mess... literally could NOT find anything!

Spent $140! But saved so so much!


Love new jeans!



Bought:

Cotton rainbow stripey dress (RRP $250 at DJ but on discount for $150 at DJ. Bought: $10!!!!)
Denim vest
light blue jeans +high waisted black jeans (Prob around $200 each normally)

So see I saved like over $500!

My mum goes the rainbow dress looks like an apron -.-

After Sass and bide sale we went wondering around David Jones (where we spotted the dress for $150) and looked at Alannah Hill, Witchery, Chloe, YSL etc *sigh =(

We decided we were hungry and I wanted to go Full House Korean restaurant but it was closed on Sundays =(. Instead we went to the restaurant downstairs, Han Cook with the best Korean ginger chicken hot pot (okay I've only been to one place that has it >.>)

Yums!


My dumpling and rice cake soup $14.

The soup was super yummy and the rice cakes were not too chewy and very very good but the dumplings were shit. I had 1-2 and didn't eat any more they were yucky =( Could barely finish this it came in a massive tin bowl.


Korean Side dishes. The yellow triangle one was nicest! I don't normally eat these cuz it's mostly kimchi dishes which I don't eat >.>


S explaining something lol. You glow!


The yummy ginger baby chicken hotpot thing. I hope you liked it S!


Obligatory photo! Man my hair cut makes me look so punk rock ish XD Esp with faux leather jacket XD


S couldn't finish it. It came with a tiny bowl of rice too.


I didn't like the dumplings so I didn't finish it. I couldn't finish the soup either was way too full!

Monday
Had work during the day and was suppose to go JAS party but after I got home and showered it was too late -.-. Oh these two guys kept staring at me at work! Omg super awkward man I could see from my peripheral vision! Lets call them Asian guy and stubble guy. Yeh they kept talking to each other like whispering while they waited for their food! Oh there's also this really old guy (stubble and Asian guy look very young) who comes all the time to say hi to me and asks why I come and whether it's cuz I need to see him T_T wtf.

Tuesday
Work again at 6am in the morning. Asian guy asks me if the woman next to me is my mum and whether the guy is my dad and I say yes and whether it is obvious. he tells me I look like my dad. Maybe that's why he was staring at me yesterday and was prob discussing whether I look like my mum/dad!

After work I went to print about 150 photos from backlog comp files and correcting and retouching them all took so long was almost late for my movie date T_T.

Got home... barely had time to shower and straighten my hair and put on make up! Had about 40mins to do all three. But I managed sorta... only half straightened my hair and did this instead:


Hmm my phone isn't connecting to my comp properly -.- So had to retake this photo. Yeh I wore a beanie and threatened my bf if he dared to try and take it off I will do unimaginably horrible things XDDD Oh lookie it's my ebay dress!!!!! i can imagine myself wearing it all summer BUT my arms are fat T_T i am now afraid to wear sleeveless stuff.

Please ignore my retarded legs... oh I wore my super high wedges again cuz the boy says I will get sick of it very quickly and will move on to a different pair of shoes very very soon T_T So I am making an effort to wear it ALL the time when he's around XDDD. Oh one guy beeped at me and another one stared out the window instead of the road >.> It's totally the shoes WOOOT! Lucky shoes!

Oh I was freezing.. cuz my stockings were in the wash =(

Went with the boy to watch Transformers. The movie was pretty good =) and we kept looking for Megan Fox's apparent Toe Thumb (apparently her thumb looks like a toe; it's true!)

To make up for last time when the boy did not wait for me at the station he drove! But only cuz his sister was sick and didn't have netball practice -.-. I pretty much just made it to the cinema and had time to buy an easyway and some sushi and after movies he drove me straight home so didn't have that much time to hang out =(.

I think it's er.... slightly getting to my head cuz I miss him now within a day or two of not seeing him =( (Don't even say what you might be thinking!!!)

Wednesday
Today I had a horrible day at work I was making a sandwich for this guy and he had a pretty big expensive order of: Toasted chicken wrap with avocado, mozzarella cheese, olives, sundried tomatoes, mushrooms. Which is quite a lot and the pricing of each items is different ish unlike our normal salads. It's easy to forget say avocado at the bottom when you've stacked it all up.

So I was at the counter telling him $10.40 and the following conversation ensues:

Me: That'll be $10.40 sir.
He gets out his card and hands it to me while I start to swipe it.
Him: How come it's $10.40? Yesterday I had one and it was $9.40
Me: Um I'll calculate each separate charge for you. A chicken wrap is $6.00, avocado is $1.00 and mozzarella cheese is $1.00......
Him: (interrupts) that tiny sprinkle of cheese is $1.00? This bloody place is a rip off
Me: If you would like, tasty cheese is 60c. Mozzarella cheese is slightly more expensive sir.
Him: it's not about the price this place is always charging different prices.....
Me: I will print a recepit for you and you can tell them your wrap is $10.40 next time and they won't make a mistake.
Him: What and be charged more? I got charged $9.40 yesterday why would I want to pay $10.40 all the time? And what Monday it'll be $8.50? What will be the price tomorrow?
Me: I'm sorry sometimes we get a bit busy and we make mistakes and your order...
Him: I don't bloody care it shouldn't matter you guys need to get your act together. Every day charge a different price for my lunch. How come you guys aren't consistent hmm?
* I print off the receipt and write down the price of every item I charged for in his sandwich and hand it to him
Him: I don't care about the price! Whether it's $10.40 or whatever you guys need to get your act together! My friends all say as well you guys always charge differently every day. What's the deal with that huh?? I am never coming here again, this is my last time and I'm gonna tell everyone to not come here too. You guys have the control here just putting out whatever prices you want all the time but I've had enough I'm never coming back again!!!
Me: .......

As I went to my dad still clutching the receipt I meticulously wrote out for him I felt tears well up as I explained to my dad what happened. My dad asked me why I didn't call him for help.

I was stuck on the spot =\ trying to explain to this guy that was stopping me mid sentence and it wasn't even my fault cuz I don't even usually do sandwiches so I'm never the one that makes the mistakes anyway yet I was the one paying for the mistake.

After I quickly summarised to my dad what happened, I ran to the bathroom and sat there crying for a good 10mins before I realised my eyes were too red so grabbed a juice and went outside to get some air and be on a break. He got me so fired up that was all I had for lunch.

Sigh what a shit day....

Asian guy and stubble guy STILL stared at me today although I was making a smoothie and didn't serve them. Stubble guy is getting a different job now so he's moving away.

Was suppose to go to the gym tonight but was so tired when I got home that I didn't feel like it.

Didn't win the $106million =(

Oh so funny yesterday I asked my bro what he would do with 90million. He said very clearly he would give everyone in the family $1000 and $1000 for charity. He would also buy the DS games he wants and then the rest he plans to buy groceries XDDD SO CUTE RIGHT???

Oh and today while cooking dinner apparently my bro told my sister to tie up his hair XD At first it was a little sprout of hair on the top of his head.. but soon there was 6 "sprouts" of hair all over his head XDDD I remember when I was a kid my mum would bunch up my hair all on the top of my head and tie it up. That was my bro. And then they went to their room, closed the door and clipped hair clips and combs into his hair XDDD He took them out just before dinner though and he was embarrassed enough to not want me to take a photo but amused enough at himself to want to run around for a few seconds like that XDDDD

Hilarious. Should've sneaked a photo!

I blame Midori for my current obsession with eBay. I log on every day, along with getting on Facebook to play Restaurant City, to look at the items I am watching and find cheap thrills that I might want to buy.

Yet for some reason, I still feel too lazy to do anything about my wardrobe. When it's time to clear it out I used to be so enthusiastic but now, nothing. In fact, I kinda dread it. I look at eBay because it doesn't require physical work. I can browse with a click of a button rather than the clink of hangers. I wonder if this is how most women feel when they are married with kids and stop worrying about their appearance; obviously they have more important things to worry about.

I am neither married nor have kids!!!

So what is wrong with me?!?

Someone PLEASE invite me out for lunch or something and keep my mind on the more material things in life. I am too young to settle down! At the risk of spending money, I would rather be bankrupt and dip into my emergency funds than be matronly!

I am thoroughly abusing exclamation marks it seems.

BUT I AM STRESSED OKAY?! And it has nothing to do with exams.

Oh what has my life become :(

I have read so many excerpts/articles from several textbooks that my beain no longer cares if public opinion exists or not. Quite frankly, it doesn't bloody matter when majorities don't give a damn about politics. I can't wait to finish this major essay and be done with Public Opinion and the Public Sphere.

On an even harsher note, I feel like a complete failure in life because I am never good enough to scrape a Distinction and am firmly placed in the high Credit area. Fmylife.

I am sick of reading about idealistic societies. Can you tell I'm a Communist/Marxist hater?

My brain wants to go die in a vat of boiling lard. With a breadcrumb crust.

I bought MAC Line Filler that was supposed to be a great wrinkle and fine line reduction cream and primer in one. It did what it was supposed to do, but I ended up with stinging and itchy eyes for the next 2 days. Needless to say, this is going back to Myer and I'll pick up a paintpot in exchange.

I think this marks the end of experimental beauty products around my eye area. I have concluded that I'll never find an eye cream that doesn't break out in eczema and sensitivity, and I'll never find a concealer that won't settle in fine lines or cover up my dark circles at least 80%.

Next on the list to cover: Coastal Scents Silica Powder (MUFE HD dupe) v Maybelline Dream Matt powder? Experiments with using MAC SatinFinish as a concealer (the only thing that doesn't irritate, but doesn't cover undereyes properly) and moving into colourful eyeliner!

So yesterday was a horrible horrible day for me. Today my net decided to be really really slow and miraculously decide not to load my notes/webct. Now I can't do any work so I decided to come here. Damn it is empty. I've been really busy lately so haven't had time to take photos/post anything.

Yesterday I had an exceptionally bad day. It went as follows cuz I need to vent.

In the morning I woke up to my sister telling me the whole family minus me was going to the maritime museum. So there I was alone at home. I realise there's a MASSIVE pile of clothes on the clothes stand and table and decide to do the laundry. End up leaving it to soak for too long and my light green shirt I might add stained my white singlet slightly. Grrr. Oh and then I got my period (just had to add that to make it worse) Grr.

I had driving lessons in the afternoon and for some reason my instructor was saying I was doing badly that day. Grrr. Infact so badly that he started saying do I need my glasses rechecked? Is it something to do with the date that I can't do well. Is there some Chinese superstition surrounding the date ( I took offense to this and found it racist for some reason =\) I don't know if he was having a bad day or joking or I was driving EXTREMELY poorly but I don't think he was being very nice about it.

At one point he made me get out of the car and drive and show me how it's done over and over again and every time he asked me: do you get it now? and I said "yes" he'll say "i don't think so cuz you'll probably make the same mistake again. I don't even think you're looking with your eyes while you're driving." I felt degraded again and again and I have this eye contact fear when people tell me off which never happens outside family so I felt really awkward. Anyway it was something about turning and following the curb except he'd never said this before. So when I got to the curb he didn't tell me how much to turn the wheel nothing so obviously I screwed up again. and when people keep telling me off I get really nervous so I made more and more random mistakes and he kept telling me off and I was really scared and frustrated because he kept assuming I knew things he'd never taught me. He told me to do a 3 point turn and never told me before how to do it T_T

I drove to the next customer's house and he wasn't there. The guy wasn't there... so my instructor let me drive back to my house. Halfway there the guy calls and goes he's come home and whether he will give a lesson so I had to turn back and let me drive me home. This meant I was home late by 1hr and still pretty shaken up about it. I hate being told of by strangers... I always felt terrified if a teacher ever told me off cuz it was so rare... Pizza Hut I was terrified of being told off by the manager...


Now usyd being a very, what it'll like to call "comprehensive" uni, has shoved us with a bunch of group work. Now I don't know if you guys remember doing those science reports back at high school but you can not possibly o something like that between 4-6 people!!! It's just a bad idea! Nevertheless I was in a group of 4. Now my group work saga did not just occur today but expanded through the week (PMS T_T) accumulating into mass agitation. It made less sense that we did the experiment in pairs but did the report in 4s and all of us from different pairs. I'm gonna name my group people A, B and C.

No one had replied within in the first few days of doing the experiment so I decided I needed to take some initiative and had everyone decide which part of the group work they wanted to do. Fob guy A decided to take intro and this girl B, took results while me and C were left with discussion which we shared the question numbers. I set a deadline of Friday night to finish the work and LATEST weekends but weekends were the time we were suppose to do the put together.

Friday came. No one sent in their part except me.

Saturday came one girl (B) sent in the results with an accompanying "oh btw I didn't have the results for part B of the experiment." I spent an hour typing up several tables of results.
WHY HADN'T SHE TOLD ME SOONER THAT SHE DIDN'T HAVE THE RESULTS??

She kept going on about how she got a new mac or something and didn't even have excel and did her stuff on some data pad so her graphs weren't even compatible with my excel...
WHY DID SHE PICK TO DO RESULTS IF SHE DIDN'T HAVE EXCEL??

Saturday night: fellow discussion girl C sends an email after I texted her for her part that she has a major essay due Monday and is doing that instead but she will probably email me her part later at night or Sunday.

Sunday: fob guy A sends his intro to me (he has a hanmail.net account wtf??). I notice he has not answered some of the questions that are to be answered and he made no references at all and send him an email. He does not reply... luckily I had their phone numbers so I msg him and he says he will fix it when he gets home which will be over 2hrs. He sends me an email at about 11:30pm with not many changes and 2 references used in 3 spots for a 1page intro. His two references were our lab manual (for the method) and our prescribed textbook. He had done no further research on any scientific journals at all.

WTF?? THE GOOD PEOPLE OF USYD HAVE BEEN DRILLING INTO OUR MINDS AGAIN AND AGAIN THAT WE NEED TO SEARCH UP JOURNAL ARTICLES THAT TEXTBOOK ALONE IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR REPORTS AND WHAT DOES HE DO???

I email him back kindly asking for maybe 1-2 more references in regards to one question "what prior work has been done in this area?"

Results girl B sends an email saying she's tried doing the graph for part B but she can't because she doesn't know how to do column graphs very well on excel... She has done legends for the graphs but I noted she used words such as "big" instead of "large/enormous" other more intelligent sounding words. She uses contractions and doesn't follow the legend guide set out in the notes. She tells me her results aren't really accurate cuz she had experimental error. I suggest we use the results I had obtained from the experiment (which I had given her a copy which she obviously didn't look at)

WHY OH WHY???

I spend 3hrs on Sunday and 1hr today doing her graphs and redoing her legend. I practically do 3/4+ of the results section....

I am quite angry at this rate so I storm out to vent on my mum and come across my sister who kept nagging me about where my newly bought laptop is (he's a beauty ;)). Me now understandably no? am at my wits end so I say very fast in a sarcastic tone "I hid it cuz mum said burglars peek at our house, they will see my laptop, they will break into our house, they will steal my laptop, I will be unhappy, I will be laptop less understand??" My dad, in the next room think that I was shouting at my sister so he gets all mad and crazy which ended in him storming out of the house.

Late at night C finally finishes her part of the discussion and I am amazed by her stuff as it is quite good after seeing the amount of bullshit so far. She apologises profusely and says she will do the rest of discussion that is about the results section when I send her the results. I offer to edit the final report and send it in on Wednesday.

I decide to upload my files into my new laptop so I can bring to uni and have something to do while I wait for kebu to finish and we can have lunch. I have lost my usb... After frantic searching and a not so helpful boyfriend telling me to "why don't you look on your desk?" (bloody first place I looked!! GRRR) I finally found it after about an hour of lunacy.

Only to find my files are incompatible with the weirdo non Microsoft Word program they have. GRRR. I had to download open office to make it all work.

Oh the fob guy in my group and I just had a "friendly" exchange of msgs as follows:
Me: did you find more sources for intro?
Him: ok... what do you mean? I've already sent u my intro last nite
Me: I sent you an email last night. could you please find 1-2 scientific journals. you didn't write about prior work in the subject.
him: Isn't the prior work means dat what we actually prepared for test??? Kinda method stuff??
Me: No it means what other experiments have been done about this subject in the past
Him: ok ill try it bt im doin other stuff i think dat i can send u by midnight.. sorry... :)

1hr 20min later.....

Him: i cnt find any prior article n even if i find one i dnt know what to write... also the one i sent u got preety much enough for intro i think...
Me: the point of research is to go beyond prescribed texts. I'll try to find something then and hopefully the references in discussion will even out lack in intro
him: i got no any offence to u sorry about my expression... as u know english is my 2nd language.... N itz really hard to do for me.... sorry

So thus this ends for now at least (C is saying she's having trouble finding stuff I do NOT want to help anyone anymore -.-)

In conclusion I hate group work.

There's my vent guys.. i feel I need to break it up with some happy picture...


Hmm Portuguese tarts from KFC..... not the ones in Australia >.>

Oh btw sorry guys for being all venty.. I pms shh.. I think I vent to EVERYONE about this already cuz I'm so pissed about it. My friend goes she's got it worse no one's replied about any section of their report and she doesn't have their numbers and they didn't reply to email. She literally has to stalk em down during our lecture tomorrow.

I was supposed to do a post on my attending the 2009 UNSW Rubik's Dance Party the other night becaus I have a lot of short stories to tell, ranging from getting sneaked in using an expired student card, being groin grinded by 3 guys of different ethnicities (oddly, the most decent of them was the white guy) and having V's friend jokingly ask me out and being rejected 3 times. It goes liike this:


Him: Will you be my girlfriend?

Me: No.

Him: Will you go out with me?

Me: No.

Him: You're not going to reconsider?

Me: Do you have to ask?

Him: What? That's not an answer!

Me: No.


Fun times.

But no, instead I want to tell the world that I've been robbed!

They only took my phone and $100 that was lying on my desk though so I'm alright!

Around 9pm last night I took a nap after losing a battle with my modem, sans shower and changing. Sometime around 12am I woke up and took a shower, and when I came back to do my daily rituals I noticed the glass door on my balcony was wide, wide open. I shrugged it off and thought "stupid dad, messing around with my door and not putting it back" and went to close it, locked it (because a part of me is always slightly paranoid) and went to bed.

Woke up for work at 4:30am. Sometimes, but very rarely I'll forget to bring my phone to work bt today was not one of those days. I went to look for i, only to find that it wasn't where I last left it on my computer table. I looked around the usual places I'll put it. I asked my dad if he took my phone, because he sometimes does that and leaves it in random places around the house (that bastard) but he goes he didn't touch it. I got frustrated and decided to call the phone and pick up on the sound, I don't have all morning to look for it.

"The phone you have called is switched off, please check your numberand try again."

You'd think I'd know my own number, and the fact that I had charged my phone on Thursday and it still had a decent amount of battery last night. I definitely did not switch my phone off.

Asked mum and she hadn't taken it. I then asked them if they had opened my metal and gauze slide door to the balcony and they both hadn't. Grandma and Porkie woke up to all the noise and she hadn't touched the door either.

Then mum goes, "Did you put away the $50 on your table?".

"No. It was a hundred."

"It got stolen?!"

"Oh."

Well, by then it was pretty obvious that someone had entered my room and stole a few things. They hadn't touched any of my jewellery and Pandora stuff, which leads me to believe that they came in, noticed I was sleeping, grabbed whatever they saw first which was all the valaubles on the desk and ran. I don't think they went past my bed. You guys know what I'm talking about, that tiny space between the desk and bed? They didn't even take my gold *cughplatecough* earrings on my desk, or the mp4 sitting in the corner; they were obviously in a rush and not looking properly.

Now there are several things that might be of interest to note.

Several weeks ago I told my parents that I heard someone tapping against my wire gauze door, as though they were trying to move it (but obviously can't since it's jammed, and I mean REALLY jammed), and then I heard voices outside the house and a car driving off after awhile.

When I told my parents this they thought I was making it up.

Hah. Paranoid, am I?

Another thing I noticed was that I think the glass door was opened before I napped. I vaguely remember coming home from uni and noticing that there was something strange about the door being reflected against my mirror. For those of you who have been to my house, the balcony door is right next to my massie mirror doors. What I think I was noticing was that instead of a reflection of a glass door, I was actually seeing a muc clearer reflection of outside.

Creepy no?

One last thing to note. I was tossing and turning while I napped - it's really uncomfortable to sleep in a blouse - and I woke up to find a car pulling up near my house, people getting out and then voices. Being the paranoid person I am, I kept an eye on the reflection of the car and lights, and concluded that it's probably Mr. and Mrs. Next Door coming home. I have to say though, that it seemed slightly suspicious at the time.

Well, I need a new phone. I'm thinking the Nokia (I love Nokia...) E71 will do very well, except I'll be so pissed if red isn't available in Australia yet.

We have a crisis at work.

The cafe has a total of 6 workers. All of which have their own problems. Much like how when it first started we had a major staff renewal.

Staff 1 is a person with a strong personality that thinks she is always right so hates it when she is told to do something in a way she doesn't like. She also wears her emotions on her face so doesn't look friendly when she is unhappy. Her strong personality has caused great tension between her and other staff. My dad wants to get rid of her.

Staff 2- The chef is currently having insomnia, trying to balance 2 jobs and all and wants to leave by next week. He has commented however that if staff 1 leaves he may come back. He is however a bit lazy.

Staff 3- A kitchen worker who works side by side with the chef. She is a fast and efficient worker but does not like the chef cuz he's lazy and finds no point in working now that staff 6 is leaving.

Staff 4- another kitchen hand that prepares all the minor stuff around the place. My dad takes pity on her since her chances of finding another job are slim and she needs the money. She however can not speak English very well and really isn't needed. She is one of the original workers.

Staff 5- she is one of the original workers. She is a hard worker but messy and staff 1 hates her.

Staff 6- she is our prized Barista. When she had her own business her local paper named her place as making the best coffee. Recently she has booked a specialist to look at her neck which seems much thicker than normal on one side. She went in for tests and her results came back yesterday.

They didn't look good.

She rang my parents and sobbingly told them she may be unable to work for us again. My parents tried to ask what was wrong but she had no answer for them. Only that she needed to go get more tests.

My parents visited her place today.

She's been diagnosed with thyroid cancer.

Probably the best worker in our staff, the best Barista I've seen and one of the kindest less bitchy staff. She has a memory for coffee orders that amazes most people and a firm believer in god. She religiously attends church every Sunday but never forces her beliefs on others.

She has 3 children all below the ages of about 10 and a loving husband.

She's only in her 30s.

My heart goes out to her and her family.

It's times like these where sickness/illness/death is so close that makes me terrified the most.

So this week has been a rather bad and disappointing week for me for a number of reasons:

1. My mum and I got into a fight near the beginning of the week
2. PMS
3. D being naive and not realising I was upset leading to a fight -.-
4. PMS
5. My boy telling me that he can not go out with me on our anniversary (1yr/13months to be exact) because he at first forgot then he realised he'll be "too tired" from a movie marathon the night before and then
6. PMS!
7. My boy telling me he can only spend an hour with me on Vday cuz he has work till 3 and a family gathering that he has to be home for at 5 with the only consolation that we will meet a day before anniversary.
8. The day before anniversary date is canceled as my dad informs me I need to work on that day. Luckily D says the movie marathon is also canceled so we could go out on our anniversary.
9. My boy asks me to meet at 1-2 ish. Asked why he says he has to cook for his parents first and then he wants to WOE (referring to a ragnarok event). I was... astounded he preferred to sit for an hour to do his ragnarok event that happened once every week instead of spend an extra hour with me since we hadn't seen each other for over a week...
10. My dad informs my brother he needs to go pre-uni because my dad believes the extra work is good for him because he is "smarter than your big sister when she was your age". Damn self esteem cut just when I was getting over PMS!
11. I ask the boy to go out on Friday before Vday to test if he'll choose me over his friends as I was aware he had a friends reunion thing going on that day that he hadn't told me about yet. To my dismay he asked me to go WITH him and would NOT ditch his friends for me -.-

Although most of my week was spent miserably I am glad to say it all turned out for the best:
- I did end up going out on our anniversary and spent a full day with my bf =)
- We managed to push the time boundary and spent 3hrs together on Vday!!

Here are some Photos =)



Anniversary on Thursday

Went to the city. Originally i wanted to have this korean chicken soup thing but D seemed intent on going to have Japanese Pizza...


We wandered around townhall as we made our way to Chinatown area while looking at shoe stores (for him) and electronic stores for laptops (for me)

We couldn't find the Japanese Pizza place so settled on Ajisen Ramen instead. That place always has nice food although some stuff at slightly inflated prices.

Had some fried squid balls =) They were yummy! but over a dollar each -.-



D's curry that was really good but only 4 peices of chicken in which he gave me a lot of it =(



My yummy Unagi rice came in this nice box!




Yum Yum!

After our scrumptious meal where we talked about Jay Chou's possible toupee and Bunning's machinery we were lost on what to do next...

Wanting to go Blue Ice but still feeling quite full we walked around Market City at Paddys Markets looking at wigs, shiny things, wtf fetish costumes and trying to find these pair of shoes I wanted until we were mildly hungry.


At Blue Ice. I think that's hazelnut something.


Intent on a Chinese Checkers game where I am Green!!


Pepper sausages.


My yummy Taro hot milk tea. I come to this place only for this hot drink >.>


Muahaha! I win!

Afterwards we went to Darling Harbour and wandered around sitting on the steps chatting until the rain got too heavy.

He sang me a song =)

We walked to the wooden steps just at the water's edge and sat there some more. I wanted ice cream but was too full -.- so instead we talked about random stuff until D put into my mouth that I was into lesbianism and wanted him to cross dress to satisfy my fantasies. wtf he put words in my mouth!

And we saw seagulls swimming! I don't know about you but I never see seagulls floating on the water! and then possible seagull sex >.>

Boy was thirsty so we went into Starbucks thinking it would be much warmer in there but to our surprise it was cold!! I was still feeling rather full so didnt get anything.


Lookie! He looks so glowy! XD

Then it was some more walking back to Central Station stopping at Chinese gardens which was closing so we just sat outside where the pond is. They have some MASSIVE fish. I tried to get D to use the hook at the end of his umbrella to scoop me one cuz I thought that's prob what many Asians would try to do.. catch the fish... I guess they didn't have much luck cuz there were still plenty there!




Lol. Kid at heart =)

I saw a pigeon sleep on a tree! wtf does that even happen a lot? I thought pigeons only stood on the ground!

On the way back we passed entertainment centre and there were posters up. I saw one of Chris Isaac's poster's for his old concert and sorta... ran my finger down the poster with his face on it.... . He is hot for an old guy okay! The boy could not stop teasing me about it for ages -.- calling me perverted and asking whether I always do this to posters!

So that pretty much concludes the whole day. I had plenty of fun although very very tired and my feet were sore from walking around -.-.

Saturday Valentines Day

Was quite cold today so I can finally start wearing jackets!! Yay! Was making some food before I went out and thinking I was late as I always am with the bus I ended up being 7minutes early!

Was checking if my double eyelid tape was still on but didn't bring a mirror so used camera... Led to taking pictures in the rain at the bus stop XD


Pretty blazer with my pink spider brooch!


Argh you can't see it here but i had on this really light pink top with flowers and stuff really girly. Cuz you know Vday and I didn't have anything red I wanted to wear so decked out in pink. Even pink underwear XD


Weee I thought this picture makes my face look long and thin and pointier chin so prettier!!

I was slightly late for our date cuz of traffic jam but I turned up okay =)

At the food court I gave him this!

Yes looks sorta demented.... but it's actually some prawn balls filled with cheese. These took me like 2-3hrs to make in total cuz I had to use a cleaver and using the side, smash it until the prawns were a paste. Too much work T_T PS. they're suppose to be heart shaped! The ones on the right are ones I made at home that arent heart shaped.


He gobbled up all the little hearts =)


See filled with cheese!!

After finishing his meal he presented me with this:


omg! The ribbon has words on it that say: On a starry night, among all the jewels, you shine more bright my precious girl" But he goes he saw words but never bothered to read them so he had no idea what it said -.-


And inside....


It's a silver Pandora necklace with a 14K gold drop and 3 smoked quartz! Pretty??

Okay my dimly lit room photography does it no justice! Here's a link to the necklace on the Pandora site:

http://www.pandora-jewelry.com/AU/Jewelry/Chains/Silverwith14kgold/59110SQ45.aspx

Okay so it isn't something I would normally pick out for myself but after wearing it I'm growing very fond of it =) He picked it out all by himself without any sales assistant help which he seems very proud of -.-

Afterwards we wandered stores looking for these sport shoes he wanted and then book stores until minglez and Steven showed up. We looked at a few books including a "dirty party games" book.

So Kebu now we know a game that we can use your "birthday present" for.....

It was practically time for the boy to leave but he said he'll stay a bit longer since his mum said get home at around 5-6 ish, he decided he'll catch the 6pm bus.

We all went up to easyway where we sat and drank and chat some more before it was time to go. Miiven went to have dinner while the 2 of us went to the bus stop and each went our separate ways.

Oh I did get the boy a present besides prawn balls okay! I went searching for hours in one of those 40 degree heat temperatures for his favourite gundam =) To my luck I did end up finding it at the LAST store I searched. He says he likes it and wants to build it straight away!


Ugly photo... but whatever I realised last minute we didn't have one -.-.

Happy Valentines Day Everyone!! Hope you felt some sort of love today =)

Lots of Love,

Midori.
xoxo

Shit I got fat.

No seriously I think I lost my chin.

Went walking through the mountains today, took a few photos and OMGWTF WHERE IS MY CHIN IN THE PHOTOS???

WHAT IS THAT LAYER OF FLAB THAT REPLACED MY CHIN???

I'm NOT kidding... and I've been using this face roller thing that apparently makes your face thinner....

WHY?? why does fat appear on my face.. where it's so hard for me to lose!

Argh.

On another note got back my photo album of a photoshoot I had done.


Yay for Chinese costumes! and my "my chin hasn't left me" days. -.-


(Shit on closer inspection you can already see my disappearing jawline -.-)

I don't know why nobody else is posting anything to keep Midori up to date. Is life really monotonous on your side there, B? Kebu and I have work almost every day, so there's nothing much to report on except the random asshole customer. What is everyone up to? Are the holidays so bad we'd rather go back to Uni where it's all action (except for me)?

Spiffed up grongbit's layout. Like?


AM reading Twilight again :) Can't get enough of it, it's my daily dose of romance and fantasy in my otherwise lacking existence.

So during exam times all I could think about was bitch later on about how sucky exams are.

So here goes:



During exam periods I get quite stressed. And I mean quite stressed. My agitation rate shoots way up. If ONE thing bothers me the problem escalates about 10x in my head during exam times T_T

Like example: I get really annoyed when people ask me trivial questions when I'm trying to study. Like when I wake up late, have breakfast at 10 then go study. My grandma comes into my room and asks what I would like to eat for lunch and when at about 11/12. I get annoyed cuz I think: bloody hell I just ate?? Do I look like I'm hungry?? do I CARE what I eat??

Yeh see very agitated unless you guys already see me like this normally >.>



11:00 am
So this is me studying....



3:00pm
This is me studying after 1 Mother energy drink and 6 vitamins, minerals and antioxidants later...




8:00pm
This is my head hurting....



10:00pm
that is chocolate. Fereror rocher!! I had a large box of overdue ones. But they're still good!! Ignore the unstraightened hair and the yucky half red nail polish -.-


11:00pm
Time for some V....



Hmm what's in this shit? Or rather what isn't cuz I'm still tired ><


1:00am
Falls asleep on a bottle of red bull....


2:00am
Stuff those energy drinks. doesn't work...


3:00am
Enough said... (omg face looks so chubby. Omg my family friends are right I am fat T_T)

So if you haven't noticed during exams I just wear a t shirt and gym pants or shorts. When I go do exams I wear black, white, grey or dark dark colours T_T can't bring myself to wear anything bright -.-

This semester the exams were a LOT harder than last sem. Maybe I forgot the pain last sem =\ But having 2 exams one hour apart from each other on the one day did me no good at all. Those pairs of jeans I've been eyeing to reward myself with are practically half a leg out the door. I'll just be happy now if I get a slightly better WAM than my required amount to stay in my course -.-

PS I did NOT consume 5 energy drinks and a bottle of alcohol in 1 day >.> I consumed about in excess of 10 in the exam period and no alcohol....

During the last few days of exams where I had 4 bunched up together I slept about 5/6hrs one night, 4hrs the next and 3hrs the one after that. Before that I relied on "Power naps" which got reduced from 1hr to 20minutes. Yes it takes me 10min ish to fall asleep, 10min sleep. Although very little, did wonders when I was REALLY tired.

This time I'm REALLY not looking forward to getting my results back considering one of my possible fail subjects is continued next year in a 2nd year subject I have to do. -.-

I'm tired like crazy but I'm so glad it's all over.... yay to holidays!!!!

Lets all go out and celebrate!!!

This Friday proved to be rather.... shit. But lets back track to Thursday.....

Thursday i had a biology quiz that I'd been studying for for almost a week. So much so that all I had buzzing around in my head was plant reproductive cycles/life cycles... anyone want to know =D??

Anyway seeing as it was the last week of uni before stuvac and exams, (I feel sorry for the other uni students who don't have stuvac =( how do you study!!!???), I wanted to have all these foods.... so we decided to celebrate the end of my last assessment before exams me and D would go out and eat. We already had a place in mind, that Japanese place that sells takoyaki at Smash and Animania events have a small set up store in China town that sells Japanese pizza. We saw it last week and really wanted some but were too full. However upon getting there we realised it was only there during Friday markets... so we decided instead to go to the Dumpling House at the end of Sussex street in china down. Here's what we ordered:


Ham and Prawn Omlette


Pork and Cabbage Dumplings.

The food there wasn't as nice as we'd hoped.... The egg part of the omelette was quite nice. Not over done, but the overall taste of it was very plain and the only flavour was saltiness. The dumplings were quite cheap at $8 ish for 12. The cheapest we've had. (we have this habit or ordering dumplings everywhere we go now if it's on the menu.... once we ordered ones for $1.50 EACH.) The dumplings were NOT worth however little we paid for it because one side was over fried... almost burnt and you could tell straight away it was just frozen package ones. We're prob not going there again... Though they did have a big tv hanging and we watched Deal or No Deal...

Friday

Remember how last Friday I raved on about how much i loved Fridays? Well this Friday sucked. I couldn't figure out what to wear for a start and opted to try the skirt into a dress idea. This is a very old longish skirt, and no one wears these anymore so I thought I should find a new use for it or chuck it out. See the red Oroton bow you guys got me?? =D I don't reckon it looks so bad considering I looked like a giant lamp shade/sleeping gown without the belt XD



Went downstairs to have breakfast and mum asked why I wear my pretty skirt into an ugly dress T_T. Grandma was still lost until I explained to her 3 times that it was a skirt not a dress....

Bad things started happening though when I headed out the door... I was in a rush to catch the train so just threw on a pair of thongs as my toes still hurt from a pair of heels a few days before -.-

BAD IDEA.

I thought my pair of yellow thongs could survive the whole uni day until the rubber thing that goes into the thongs that's clamped between my big toe and 2nd toe (everyone know what I'm talking about here?) falls out... making it impossible to walk... I shove it back in but it falls out a total of 5 times just on my way to the train station from my house. And I looked really stupid bending down every few metres to put it back in... So I decided to call minglez to see if she was still at Parra and could just go into Westfields and buy me a pair. Her train was coming in a few minutes. We decide to go to Townhall as QVB and other stores are closer to the train station than market city was from Central. Few minutes pass and she rings me back saying her train should be here but it just got delayed by 5min. She would have made it if she went and got a pair of thongs for me!!!

I get to Central first and am busting to go to the toilet since my grandma cooked congee in the morning and it always makes me wanna pee. (TMI XD??) and I realised Townhall's toilets were having sewerage problems. Had to think frantically trying to think of where the next toilet was. Should ask Steven next time where he went that night at Townhall....

Before minglez arrives I search the area under kinokuniya. When she arrived we walked all the way along QVB to Pitt street. Yes there were shoe stores but everyone above $40. I'm not forking out $40 for emergency shoes T_T All I wanted was a nice pair of comfy thongs.

Eventually we were basically shopping... We finally saw a General Pans Co at Pitt Street and decide if they didn't have thongs we'll just spend the rest of the day shopping and skip our lessons.

They had thongs.

We rummaged through several pairs cuz any colour I liked was not in my size.... Finally I settled on ANOTHER yellow pair -.-



Went up to pay and realised i had 30c on me... I forgot to load my wallet with more cash after spending it on the yucky meal the day before....

Had to use my card -.- and these thongs cost me $24.95!! Maybe it's just me... but aren't Havaianas a tad expensive? I remember my old yellow pair from Jay Jays with Serena's were like 2 for $15. Oh well... minglez also bought a pair of pink and white ones were were quite nice. I liked them =( but I don't have many other pink things...

We started to walk back to TH station when minglez realises she had a um..... "wardrobe malfunction" So off we went trying to find something to correct it with....finally we found a pair of shorts in Supre for sale. On the way back to TH station we saw Mondo. the icecream place near the escalators and decided we wanted a banana dipped in chocolate stick. It was cheap at $1.95 but the banana was brown on the outside.. and in the very last few minutes of its days.... it didn't taste so nice because of that -.- shit day aye? We'd missed our first class and our 2nd class had started by now but I forced myself to go back to uni and not miss anymore classes...

On the bus minglez got off at central to meet up with Steven since she didn't have anymore classes anyway (or maybe she jigged....) I stayed on the bus to go to Usyd. The bus passed the entry at Broadway.... lazy me thinking that it would go all the way to the front of uni didn't want to get off here so I stayed on.

The bus kept going straight until it passed...

the entry to footbridge theatre....

St Paul's college in usyd...

Usyd veterinary clinic....

Unfamiliar roads...

In the end I decided to get off... however I was almost lost... I had no idea where I was and the only place familiar seemed to be the footbridge theatre entrance... so I trekked back. The weather was getting hotter and the walk seemed a lot longer than what it was on the bus... past the veterinary clinic... past st Paul's college... I was getting rather hot, tired and sticky by now and an antique store opposite the road looked rather inviting...

Finally I found an entry that seemed familiar and found my way back into uni -.- I was at the opposite side though of where I wanted to go so had to walk another 15min to get to maths building to collect my results. Which turned out to not be available yet cuz I just had the lesson in the morning and the uncollected papers weren't in the pigeonholes yet. Urgh now I have to go back during stuvac to collect it...

Went to MBLG lecture, met D and he informed me that he had a group presentation at 4, which I knew about... then told me they hadn't finished the project so he could only stay with me for an hour after the lecture -.- and therefore unable to go to Chinatown again to have Japanese pizza...

MBLG lecture freaked me out about exams... so screwed...

After telling D about my bad day he said he'll take me to eat ice cream. We went to a nearby restaurant in Broadway. Sunflower. We'd been there before during my vegetarian days and had a sweet crepe that was very small and expensive but we were willing to try again. The place was quite packed and we got the 2nd last table =)

I had this:

BBQ pork rib with rice. One of their recommended dishes. I know.. it's not icecream -.- I was hungry okay... needed some proper food... and I had an ice tea. They gave me one lonesome ice cube in it... wasn't very nice... This dish was yummy though and i couldn't finish it all. They had a bit of cabbage underneath some of the pork so it looked deceivingly big... but I still couldn't finish all the rice or the salad. This place has a tendency to sweeten everything.. This dish was a bit sweet =\ Apparently it's all Taiwanese cuisine.


This is Mr D' dish. Aussie Sunrise. Isn't the egg with the tomato sauce cute! The thing about this place is they have a small bit of salad with almost every meal making you feel healthier XD I had a bite of this, which had cucumber, ham and more boiled egg inside. It was nice... gut a bit strange cuz it also had a sweet taste to it....


D's been craving Takoyaki for some time and he got this side dish. The balls are really small and under it were lettuce leaves to make it seem like there's more... and there is the tiny bit of salad. The takoyaki was average.

Next to us we saw a guy have a huge plate of rectangular shaped dumplings.. needless to say we're coming back for ice cream and dumplings!!

Sunflower is quite good I reckon. Some of the sweet dishes are a bit expensive considering how small they are and in relation to their savoury counterpart of the same price. They specialise in ice cream, crepes and Taiwanese cuisine. It's about halfway on Broadway between usyd and central.

We still had a bit of time after to browse and went to Broadway Shopping Centre cuz it was air conditioned!! Wondered around not doing much then just sat on the couch drinking Easyway. This convo made me laugh XD:

*D tugs at my dress and tries to put the icy Easyway on me
Me: oi stop it!
D: aww but it's funny
Me: no it's not... you're so childish
D: how! I am not!
Me: well childish or do you prefer another word? Starts with P? 7 letters. Ends with t. (I'm thinking pervert btw >.>)
D: I.... I don't know what word you're thinking about!

5min later.

D: perfect! Yes you're right I am perfect yeh ;)
Me: T_T that wasn't the word I was thinking about...
D: Yeh!! starts with p, ends with t, 7 letters!
Me: -.-

Haha so cute no XD? Took him too long though to come up with that come back....

We ended up browsing for quite a bit cuz his group members called him and said they' already finished it. so we could have gone to eat Japanese pizza T_T

Walking home was hot hot hot and humid. I hate hot humid weather... Oh there must be something with the men who drive on Pitt street. This whole week most days I have received either a whistle, horn beeps, waves, shouts etc ALL on the same street. WTF?? And on Friday, this guy who's car was stopped at the lights blew me a kiss O_O. I was drinking water then and almost spat it out XD

Worst news of all though was an email i got from the university. I had previously already received my mark for the prac component of one of my unit of studies: MBLG. I received another email though with the exact same content and my mark changed. LOWERED in fact...

I was devastated... it was quite a difference too... From 82.8 to 75.5. That's like an almost High Distinction to a just Distinction! So I emailed the coordinator and she emailed me back saying my demonstrator had given one of my marks as out of 20 when it was out of 10 so she ended up entering 14.5/10 instead of 14.5/20... Therefore the LOWER mark is correct.

DAMN. Got me all excited at my good mark... at my possibility to get a shit exam mark and still get a credit for the unit and BAM the lower mark hits me. I know the mark isn't too bad.. but she got my hopes and expectations up then smashed them to the ground...

Oh woe me... =(

Shit Fridays followed by 2 weeks of studying is not so great...

And now I have procrastinated for like 2hrs.. back to studying...

Won't be hearing from me for 2 weeks..

Midori.