Monday, March 16, 2009
It's Not Funny
Life works funny.
People you need just suddenly seem so unaccessible and busy that you feel guilty for disturbing them.
People you first think of and turn to when something big happens. And they're just not there. So you turn to the most accessible and free and update them on life in a casual, light tone that never quite reaches the severity burning in your eyes and the nightmare that entails.
Life is often ironic.
When your heart and mind are aching from relationship, but the one you love is overseas and can't be there to share your tears and screams. And so you turn to a substitute, who is happy to help.
And you drink yourself silly.
And lock yourself in a room with tissues and alcohol.
When your family is in disarray and the denial that occurs is too much to bear with the background noise of domestic violence. The one you love can't help, because their family is also dysfunctional and suffering.
You wonder, what's the point?
When he is the cause for pain, and nobody understands it because you can't tell anyone anything, yet you want them to just get it. But you can't turn to him either, so you lose two birds with the one stone and they lie on the grass dead and broken.
It's been two hours and my grandma is lost, late and alone in China. Thought you guys should know one way or another.
4 comments:
I hope she's okay...
omg. How come she's lost, late and alone???
You know you can talk to me anytime without feeling guilty right?
Talk to me. I'm here to listen.
man I suck at comforting, so go talk to midori, i can be like a last ditch option if all fails. but hey, I'll try if you need.
Your grandmother doesn't seem very frail, I'm sure she's ok somewhere, lost track of the time, and forgot to call home. I do that all the time o.O How did she get lost anyway?
I hope you guys find her! or better yet, she finds you guys first.
Maybe by the time you get this uber late post, you guys would have found her already.
Goodluck =]
She called to say she was leaving someplace that usually takes 1hr to travel from, but after 2hrs she still wasn't back. Few days before that, she forgot which apartment she was staying at.
You haven't seen her lately have you? In the span of 5 years she went from fit and strong to frail, small, hunched old woman.
She's probably back now, but I think she has Alzheimer's.
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