Lair of Flying Green Song Rabbits

So holidays have started a week ago for me and I've been up to nothing in particular....

The first week, hung out with bf as much as possible as he went overseas on Sunday for an unknown period of time. Went and satisfied various cravings for mochi, takoyaki, egg tarts (tried), soft shell crab etc that I had during exams.

Been job searching with not much luck and don't really want to work at the Cafe as morning starts are too early and I'm too lazy to wake up; but the correct response would actually be dad doesn't really need me there and I would be wasting his money and I don't want to depend on him.

Caught up with Josh yesterday and had (finally) my long awaited egg tarts that were the LAST ones there. Then cuz the yum cha place basically wanted to kick us out (it was almost 4 lol), we went to Gloria Jeans for further catching up. Saw a lady pour >10 satchels of sugar into a large coffee....

I'm also having a massive clean up of junk at home. Book shelves, cabinets, drawers, wardrobe etc. I'll like to think it's like a soul searching/clensing experience but it's really the result of unemployment and something to do with my hands as I watch non stop movies and Chinese dramas.

I am a massive hoarder so I couldn't bear to part with most of my 1-3rd year Uni crap. I managed to throw out lecture notes but have saved reports, typed notes, assignments and lab manuals still on my bookcase. I finally stored away my HSC notes into a box into the garage because I still can't bear to throw them away.

Inside my drawers I still found pretty diaries, stickers and notepads as well as many jewellery boxes with random broken and old jewellery. I threw away or gave to my sister most of them as I was finally able to let stuff go. (Apparently it takes me approx 9years to let things go.) I also cleaned out my computer stuff drawer and chucked out some old installation CDs and crap I no longer needed.

It'll be nice to say all this felt good but I have a headache now.... What was amusing was finding little memories among all the crap. I had saved the SMH annoucement of marks and degree admissions and found the Prefect polls from high school. I found warm greeting cards from people at Christmas and Birthday and Formal party invitations. Also found a Naruto/Sasuke yaoi fanfic Reila and I wrote in class sometime ago; hilarious!

I don't know how I am suppose to unclutter my life at the rate I'm keeping things....

Also been watching too much tv/dramas/movies. Today I watched Bounty Hunter (shit but my god Jennifer Aniston has a hot bod) and Time Travellers Wife (Alright). Also planning to download another 10G worth of movies tonight to keep me occupied.

Tomorrow I should exercise a bit too and maybe do some grocery shopping for food... Going to sleep early tonight for a (hopefully) early morning to try and lead an exhilarating life....

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

I could really use a wish right now.

I had a sudden desire to visit my old Xanga blog, and boy is it the epitome of teenage angst. So much had happened in just a span of a few years during those times, hard times. I also haven't been writing in my diary since I haven't felt the urge to record anything significant down. I've gotten over the need to whine and bitch about life so I have no idea what to do with all these extra notebooks.

Now that holidays are back, perhaps I should start writing? As in, with pen and paper (and all these notebooks I have).

I haven't been feeling myself lately. Earlier this year I was ready to get up before 1pm and do something with my day. Now and ever since midsem break, I don't feel like waking up at all. I've been feeling quite down and somewhat lost at what to do with my time. This is just a consequence of my self-conscious issues and hopefully I'll be getting over it soon.

While I am procrastinating from my one and only exam, I was examining my life and what it holds.

A lot has happened this year that has propelled my life forward a lot more than I thought. Interning, experiencing my career in advertising, making plans for the boyfriend to change his path, reading blogs about people getting married and having kids (and I mean a LOT of them for some reason!). And to be completely honest, I thought I would miss my chance to be young and active but now all I can think about it settling down.

Not right now of course, at least in my mid 20s. But slowing down my life so that I don't have to think about deadlines, bringing work home, partying hard and working harder still.

Maybe I'm reading too many of those blogs. I'm only 20 years young, for god's sake!

While I don't melt at the sight of babies (nasty, messy little blighters they are), I dream about owning my own house or apartment in a nice suburban neighbourhood, maybe somewhere around Castle Hill or Brighton-le-Sands. I think of kitchens and cooking and waiting for the breadwinner to come home so I can feed them. I think of what colours I want to paint the walls and what vegetables I want to grow in my backyard (pumpkin!) and it makes me giddy thinking about it.

But then again, who cares about that stuff when I'm 20 years young and can dance into the night to ear-splitting music and psychedelic lights?

This is going to just be a whole lot of ramblings about nothing in particular to destress me before studying/exams. Then again my week/weeks/month has been pretty good so nothing to stress about lol.

So about a week ago it was my bf and I's 6 month anniversary since we hooked up. He told me to leave the day free and to dress up real nice for something special. I was so excited! After class I rushed home, put on a nice dress, heels he bought me, make up and a bit of perfume and a coat and met him in the city. He wore a nice shirt and formal shoes and we both looked super classy =)

He led me down towards darling harbour way and led me to various restaurants before turning away and going to South Steyne. The floating boat restaurant in Darling Harbour near Harbourside. We were escorted to a window seat on the boat/restaurnt but had to wait as they needed to clear the table since apparently it was a busy night.

It was pretty nice in their but cuz we were sitting on the side the table and chair was slanted! And the food took a while to come. We had some spicy prawns for an entree and The Sundowner BBQ for mains to be shared. It was BBQed lamb, steak, kangaroo and chicken breast with mushroom and pepper sauce and topped with crispy chips and roasted potatoes.

Being super considerate bf said to cook the meat medium instead of his usual medium rare. The best meat out of all of them was probably the kangaroo steaks. It was cooked kinda rare but kangaroo meat tends to get too tough if it's cooked for too long so it was just right. The dim lighting also helped me not see the bloody meat >.>.

As we were waiting for dinner to arrive, bf couldnt wait anymore and passed me a little jewellery box and inside I found a silver name necklace. Just as I had guessed and he put it around my neck after dinner.

We wanted to go to Lindt Cafe to have dessert since nothing on the dessert menu was that appealing but on Tuesday nights it closed early so we walked to the Chocolate Room. It's kinda newly openned near Darling Harbour. We had a hot chocolate each and a cake from their cake selection. By the time we were feeling particularly fat my mum called and told me to go home so we walked to the station and went home.

It was such a good night and I wear my necklace all the time now. The guy at General Pants at MidTown now knows my name -.-.

Two weeks ago, after spending most parts of the day at bf's place where he made me delicious Pizza and I attempted to understand Rugby, we decided to go out for dinner at Cafe Ish. When we were heading out there was a very light drizzle and we didnt think to bring an umbrella... By the time we were walking to Surry Hills the dizzle became rain.... The street was super quiet and the rain was pouring and we couldn't find the place!! We google mapped it and realised it wasn't open for dinner, only breakfast and lunch =(. Beign quite upset I decided we could go to Bodega which should be on a street nearby. In our hurry to find some shelter, we walked in the wrong direction away from the restaurant!! When we finally reached the restaurant it was packed so we kept walking and almost ate some pub food. In the end we went to a place called CRU54 Kitchen and Bar since it looked warm.

We ordered this....: Jámon croquette with Romesco sauce (no idea what it was we were too hungry and curious for food) and some other thing we couldn't understand and Caramelised goat cheese with onion compote. For mains we ordered Octopus salad and Braised pork belly in apple sauce. We thought we ordered enough food until the food came....

The thing I had no idea about was just a deep fried log with some sort of creamy potato filing, no bigger than a short sausage. The goats cheese was 1 mouthfull. The other thing we had no idea about turned out to be cured salami. About 10 very thin slices. Some complimentary bread was provided but it tasted stale =(. By the time the mains came we realised we're not going to be full... The Pork belly were in 4 3cm cubes and were delicious! But so small.... My ocotopus salad had about 5 pieces of ocotopus and the salad was dry. By the end of it we just wanted to get out of there and eat something else. The meal cost me >$50 and we weren't full!!

We ran some more through the rain and took a train to Wynyard to warm up with some Max Brenner but when we saw the line that stretched out the door we decided we should get Maccas... We ran some more through the rain and went to Maccas for a meal. By this time it was like 11pm! My flats were soaked and I had to dry them in a handdryer in the bathroom and we were left hungry all day. The only thing that made it better was good company.

Okay I should get studying... But there's so many more great days to recount! (Fish Markets, da Vinci Exhibit, bowling etc) but I think you're all sick of my sappy recounts of days with my bf. I'm sorry I've become one of those girls where my life practically revolves around seeing him enough times a week and don't see anyone else. >.> Oh well time to start cramming now and isolate myself from the world for the next.... 3 weeks.

We've finally reached the point in our lives that will begin the rest of it, Sex and the City style :)

As with life, you will often get dry periods where nothing interesting really happens and you just go through day by day in the same old, cyclical fashion.

So what's new?

Midori and her mother may be going to America! So am I with the fam, for Christmas.

I'm still interning. The early and late hours are starting to get to me.

Porkie punched a hole in his wall?

Freya has fleas and I'm too poved to buy her $30 drops wuwuwu T_T

I ebayed off some clothes and earned about $100 yay.

My shares are dropping because of the stupid interest rate rise T_T

I am totally voting for the Greens next election because I find the Rudd government incompetent and haters of the middle class, and Tony Abbott is an idiot. Just my two cents.

While we are on the topic of politics, who thinks that plain packaging for cigarettes is going too far?

So today my bf decided to suprise me with a little something =)

Remember these shoes that I had wanted since January. Well I've been waiting for them to go on sale since then and it's still not on sale. =(

My boyfriend suprised me with them this morning after class but disguished in a Myer bag because he didn't want to be seen carrying a bag that says Wittner HAHA.

We had a talk about a few nights ago about why I won't let him buy me anything when I shop (because to me it really is the thought that counts and paying for something I picked out only requires some money being handed over at the counter). I hinted I like suprises and 1-2days later my pretty shoes are mine MINE!!

We didn't do much today usual eat lunch (Chat Thai at Central cuz I was suppose to go with Serena but she ditched me -.-) then walk around Darling Harbour and then we went into T-Bar where the T shirts were on sale! Half price and tried on a multitude of T-shirts. I decided on a Men's T shirt with a skull and a line that says "fear the darkness) (cuz I'm that badass) in Large while crush decided on two T-shirts in SMALL. I wear bigger T- shirts than him omg. I didn't like the fit of the female ones cuz I like them kinda loose. Tight things just I dunno... no longer appeal to me =\

What now follows will be a crazy spam of photos in no particular order cuz i cbb rearranging them...


Please excuse the slutty no pants...and the side photo... I just changed into the T shirt (that he also bought me and that I will repay him.....) and lovely heels to send him a photo =)

On Monday I finished class early so decided to meet with my crush because we missed each other so much over the weekend (yes cue cheesy lines here). Went shopping a bit cuz he needed some black shirts for work and then we were starving... REALLY starving... We didn't know what to eat around Pitt street mall considering my two favourite korean/japanese places were closed so we said we'll visit the next thing we come across which happened to be:


That's a massive Family Value meal... It contributed about 120% of what my fat intake should be over a WHOLE day, not one meal...

Anyone know any place that is nice to eat at near pitt street mall (not that Asa something sushi place....) that isn't the food court??


Cute cupcakes my sister made all by herself from the white wings packet.


Crazy sulfuric acid spill on my jeans that burnt a green hole.... that's getting bigger..


My great aunt sent an old fashioned letter with cute photos attached. She is the most loveliest person ever. Sadly my great uncle has gone a bit dementia like and he was recently diagnosed with liver cancer. He's fighting it well but with their ages beign in the late 80s it's not looking good. I hope he lives the rest of his days relatively pain free. I want to visit them again so bad =( The last (and first) time I visited them I promised I'll bring them a blue eyed blonde aussie to show them....

On Friday night I recieved some devastating news while I was out. I was checking crush's iPhone in light of a $1 sale on a website that I wasn't sure what time it launched. I saw an innocent email from my uncle and thinking it was probably some photos they sent us I openned it. It was news that my other uncle had just recently been diagnosed with cancer.

In the whole email the words cancer was the only thing in English. My chinese is not the best but eventually after some guess and check on a translator I figured it was cancer of the large intestines (Bowel).

I don't know what it was, the fact that 2 seconds ago I was concerning myself with a shopping sale, the memory of my uncle that suddenly struck me, the thought that he was suppose to retire and come for a holiday in Australia in a few months or I was just plain emotional that day, I cried. Tears just started falling instantly and words didn't come out properly. Now anyone who knows me knows I'm not a big cryer in public but that day I couldnt help myself. Luckily it was dark and we were sitting down at some tables/chairs. It came so unexpectedly even for me but I am lucky my bf was there to wipe away my tears and sweep me into a hug. Thank you.

After enquiring further my mum said luckily cancer was detected early and he's had an operation and waiting for results/further treatment.

ANYWAY, onto happier things.

During the holidays I took my family to the Museum of Contemporary Art especially to see this exhibit. It probably sounds familiar cuz I've been before already. Yes it's THAT good.

It was the Olafur Eliasson: Take Your Time exhibit at the MCA. The first thing you see is a massive table full of white lego pieces and massive works of lego art such as these:




This is my brother's creation.




This is my sister's creation.


This is me working away at my own crappy cretaion...


Behold the table of people working at their own masterpiece! These photos were taken illegally by my mum cuz she was mad impressed too. Sadly the exhibit is no longer in Australia =(

That's all guys it's late and I'm tired!

So I am sure most of you should have heard by now that I recently got an internship. Nothing too flashy, just paperwork and research and analysing data. I am hoping that this will amount to something, but also worried because I've heard through the grapevine that this agency is a bit of a slave driver. Le sigh.

Well, work is what it is. I guess Mad Men is a pretty accurate representation of the advertising industry.

It seems there's so many instances of me being unmotivated I might as well classify my whole life as unmotivating...

Anyway lately I feel like I'm in such a rut. I don't see my friends much, I'm not working, I'm not studying, I'm not exercising, I'm not doing anything much. Now I could selfishly shift the blame on to my crush who takes up too much of my time, my boss for not giving me any shifts, my lack of textbooks available this semester, enertia for making me not want to move and general holiday mood for everything else.

But.

I keep having this little voice tell me that I have to grow up now and stop complaining as much, whining and being generally annoyed at life.

While everyone else is getting internships, having multiple jobs and what not I've been living off previous earnings. I need a job, seriously. (Let's hope this isn't another one of my phases again...) Okay lets me realistic this time then. I want to get a job or an internship or volunteer work this semester. But I know some places aren't really recruiting right now so I'm going to promise that I will get a Christmas job to earn money all through uni next year. This may seem far away actually >.>. But yeh something.... The one reason besides laziness which has prevented me from doing this though is the lack of time then I'll have to spend with my crush. But I gotta start sometime.

Also I WILL attempt to apply for Youth Allowance. (And finish, even if I fail)

I will also get a driving instructor which seems quite important now especially if I move, I will really need to know how to drive. I will have some intensive more than once a week lessons which I will back up with lessons from dad.

I FINALLY today went to get my own medicare card and the other day I finally got my own debit mastercard (WOOT!)

I WILL finish the two agriculture reports and do a good job in the nutrition assignment and be more prepared, assignment/assessment wise, for the rest of this term.

I have decided before I have completed these tasks any big purchases will be put on hold until the end of the year. It's back to budgeting my weekly spendings and timetabling my days to avoid procrastination.

That skinfold test also scared me about the amount of body fat I am carrying so I think I should exercise more....

I also need to visit the dentist. All you ex- braces/new-braces wearing people have me considering braces now. That invisalign (?) thing. Does anyone know for sure that it isn't covered my private health care? If it's not I'll need to consider some considerable monetary damage. Hmm is my teeth that bad T_T

Cheers to a new (hopefully) more responsible, mature me.

I'll get back to you guys by the end of this week to see how much of this I have started!

I need some motivation people!!

MOTIVATE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!